The Numbers Game
? ? I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I have been busy with working part time and with lots of orders (which I am very grateful for!).
? ? Well I FINALLY got under 250 pounds. I cannot even put into words how HAPPY and THRILLED I am to FINALLY be under 250 pounds! I haven’t been under 250 in about 10 years. So everyone who knows me now, neighbors, friends, co-workers, people at school, have NEVER seen me under 250 pounds. So this is a miracle in my book!
? ? As for the numbers… ha! How frustrating can that be! I know you really shouldn’t weight yourself more then once a day, but I find myself hoping on the scale a couple of times a day. NOT DAILY… juts every few days I feel the need to weigh myself more then once.? And it’s amazing how the numbers flucuate! One morning I can be 247.8 and the next day I’m 249.2 and then the following day I’m 247.9. What gives? Why does that happen? I know they are only numbers, but, they are very important numbers.
? ? Why do? we place such? a huge emphasis on NUMBERS? And it’s all just like a great big game. Sort of like playing a slot machine in Vegas. When you turn the handle you don’t know what is going to come up. Either you’ll win or lose, or in this case, gain or lose. The scale is like a slot machine. When you step on it you never know what you are going to get.
? ? Even though the numbers on? the scale keep bouncing around I do notice a difference in the tape measure. I’m about 2 1/2″ smaller in my hips, 2″ in my waist and 1″ each in my upper arm and upper thigh. WOW! That is A LOT when you think about it. Especially after only 6 weeks and 20 pounds. And that is from not even exercising much. Imagine if I REALLY applied myself to excercise? Imagine the difference in the measurements then.
? ? I realize now too that I saw myself A LOT bigger then I truly was. I have size 26 and 28 jeans and size 3X and 4X tops. Right now after only 20 pounds I can? fit into 24 and even size 22 jeans, although my top size is still a 3X. That is impossible I think to go from a size 28 jean to a size 22 jean in a month after only 20 pounds. Which leads me to believe that I was NEVER really a size 28 to begin with. I rarely wore jeans anyway, but the ones I do have are a size 28 or a 26, which now slide off my body.
? ? How come we SEE ourselves as bigger then we really are? I have heard of people losing A LOT of weight but still see themselves as overweight when they look in the mirror. What is wrong with our perceptions?
? ? I do know that now I don’t want to wear oversized tops like I used to. I used to wear huge tops on me that covered up my backside entirely. Now I want to wear more fitted tops and those that rest just below my waist on the jeans. Sadly I haven’t been able to buy many new tops yet. But I will!
? ? I’m also going to continue to get rid of my “big clothes” as soon as I get down a size or two, that way I cannot allow myself to gain weight back because I’ll have nothing to wear - literally!
? ? So I guess I should just stop playing the numbers game and not worry so much over how the scale is up a pound from the day before. I guess in the end it all works out. As long as I can continue to fit into a size 22 jean I must be doing something right.
? ? Now to start exercising more! I would love to be in a size 20 jean in another month or two!